On My Own

The song "On My Own" from Les Mis is constantly STUCK in my head!

The girl singing is dear Eponine, who is in love with Marius, the guy. But Marius friendzones her (awww) and falls in love with Cosette the blonde girl. In the end Eponine dies in the very same street she sang On My Own in the rain during the French Revolution, sacrificing her life so that Marius may live. DAMMIT Eponine you poor girl! There are many other guys out there you know, like Enjolras!

I love the lyrics, cos it's so heart wrenching and humbling, and it does hurts knowing the person you love has happiness without you, and everyday you live, imagining him in everything you do.
(HAHA but i'm happy living the single life now actually! Just that this song's really good.)

On My Own 
Les Miserables

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

My Baby MONK!

NICE YES?

i present to you my very first darling clarinet, MONK! lol the name is weird and it's thanks to my dear friend Weihuan who named it (i let her name it in honour of her birthday being the day i got my first clar) And it's cos her nickname is Monkey so she used MONKey.

Mom found it at a second hand shop in really good condition ( new cleaning cloth, screws intact, cork grease provided, shiny keys etc) and called dad if he could drop me at the shop to take a look. So i brought along my reeds and mouthpiece. I wasn't really in for it cos the clar wasn't Yamaha or Buffet, but the sound was nice when i played it (can't use my mouthpiece cos it couldn't fit so i used the one in the case)

So i bought it! i payed for about almost half the price since i'm working and dad payed the rest. I'll be practising more often to get my embrouchure back.

Today's New Year's Eve!! and i got the day off again:D gonna have my self party at home like on Christmas, this time with my new baby MONK!

My Fireflies in a Jar

Had Age Out today! I was really touched and impressed by what my wonderful current band members have done for the alumni. I had SO much fun!

Can't believe i had age out for me when all these years i've done age out for other batches of alumni.I'm finally an alumni:)

Well the games were pretty fun too...my group was sporting but i was grouped with my ex-partner in crime who is such a joker with bad karma on his face (quote Simshuang). And someone i was hoping to see didn't turn up so awww.

All these bring back memories of when i was still an active member, and these memories stored like fireflies in a jar. Slowly i'll start forgetting them as I grow older and move on to other places, like releasing fireflies (GOD this is so deep).

Well memories are made, and more will be made! my dearest juniors...I'LL BE BACK (cue 2pm's I'll Be Back song)

Watched Les Miserables today with Tommy and Terence at Cathay! I loved the show, but Tom found it boring cos it was all done in songs - guess he doesn't know how to appreciate musicals? After that we had Korean food at Manna Story in Plaza Singapura. The whole trip was kinda awkward for me somehow...i guess i do better with girls instead of guys?

It's coming close to year end, and i feel like 2012 wasn't a productive and happy one. Rather i think of sad memories. Was i a good friend, a good leader, a good sister, a good daughter, a good student? Was i being despised or favoured? I guess most people question themselves too when it comes to the end of it all. 2012 was a rocky mountain and now i'm at the top. I feel like i'm blind cos i can't enjoy the mountain top view with a comforted heart.

Anw there are always mountains to scale and conquer, hopefully 2013 would be a more fruitful mountain to climb!:)

Seeing the Light

STUPID TITLE. haha it looks like i've been inspired or something but noooooo. I see light in these few days of grey.

COS' I'VE GOT A DAY OFF TMRRR ON CHRISTMAS!! *jiggles in excitement*

hahaha yess yes my bosses asked me to take the day off tmr since i've been working the past 4 days.i'm gonna relax like shit.

Right now i'm having my mini celebration alone at home (yes,alone and single on Christmas Eve.) Eating leftovers,enjoying a mix i made out of grape Vitagen and 7-up, and watching the Once Upon a Time series (LOVEEEE IT). The mix's NICEEE cos Vitagen has no kick and 7-up's kinda plain so mixing them together gives me powerpuff girls. HAHA i'm kidding.

Well tmr i'm gonna go Christmas shopping. I've to go by myself since the presents are to be surprises so NO ONE can see them until they unwrap the pressies.

Whining before Christmas

Christmas is coming...but i'll be working :(
And all this while Christmas has been my most favourite time of the year...this year seems to be an exception.

I'm off to work soon...about 30 min from now actually. And i'm like...siannn.
 I. DON'T. WANT. TO. WORK.
well it isn't a bad job,the people there are nice...except that when times get hard it can be STRESSFUL!.URGHHH. Samantha will persevere!

but i feel like sleeping - it's such a good weather to sleep in....tsk.

The Mayan calendar thing didn't come true...and now people are telling me results day is on 10 JAN.
10 JAN like seriously wth?! Things seem to be looking DISASTROUS.

What i really need now is some motivation...and some caffeine to keep me awake. My body clock has gone haywire. Somebody help meeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'm still excited with my new blog hehs...

I wanna go travelling. This hols i didn't leave this land at all. URGH.

I wonder if i'll get to see anything like that scene above...ever. If funds were limitless, i'd go backpacking to all sorts of places. I wanna go to the countrysides of Japan and Korea, the historical places in Europe and the savannahs of Africa. Yeah sure i can start saving up now but what to do with a spendthrift like me?

Come to think of it i can't remember where my money goes to. I don't splurge on clothes or shoes or accessories (in fact Vivien has 10 times of what i own...which is pathetic). Maybe food? Gosh that's sad. And it's not like i don't gain weight...sobs*

Mom just got me an early Christmas present! wait for it...... a swimming costume :/ i guess it's a hint for me to start losing the flabs. But yeah it's something i treasure...so thanks ma:) Stacey and my future brother in law Justin got me a book together,called The Screwtape Letters. I just started on it and it's kinda interesting though it's on the difficult subject of Christianity. It's a bunch of letters from a devil underling Screwtape to his nephew Wormwood on trying to drive people away from believing in God. Hope it helps me in that path.

Anw i'm gonna shop for Christmas presents too! But i don't know if my part time job pay is enough to cover it...:S This year i don't have band mates to give presents to as i've done for the past four years. Kinda nostalgic...but it's all in the past and i'm not going back there! Time to move FORWARD!

FIRST POST!

YEAH! A BLOGGGGG! like after so damn long.

I was treating tumblr as a blog but it's not to be used that way. Here i can yak all i want.
Anw this skin is a lil too feminine for my liking but i love the calendar thing in the column there on the left.

Anw cheers to the very first post! APPLAUSE! i shall yak and yak all sorts of nonsense. I hope i can make people laugh but i think if you're seeing this page you'd probably be rolling your eyes at how cold my humour is. WHO CARES IT'S ME! wahahahahaha

Hols are coming to an end an O level results will be out SOOOONNN.Let the world end this week. Let the Mayan calendar stuff be true. Then i won't have to take my results.:D