Yoush sent this pic of our PW group from ages ago yesterday when I was at Macs studying till 12am...I miss the old days sheesh.
From left to right: You Xuan, Crystal, Yours truly, Eric and Ida at NLB Bugis
And here's pics from the teachers' day celebrations on Friday! No idea why Dawn's phone pics suddenly became blurry :/ her phone is like the official class camera cos its quality is kinda like the best among all our phones.
For class breakfast all of us brought junk food and the only proper food there was Val's superb mash potatoes with eggs and bacon bits. In the end we gave Ms Cheryl and Ms Ho the marshmallows I bought and the leftover junk food we couldn't finish was put in Val's locker so that we could munch on them during classes (so much for Brightspot haha) Dawn and I kept teasing Ms Ho about her funny appearance in one of the videos made and acted out scenes of her and her boyfriend feeding each other marshmallows. Ms Ho was so disgusted she tried to whack Dawn but all of us were just laughing like idiots. :)
(Taylor Swift) All I knew this morning when I woke Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before And all I've seen since 18 hours ago is green eyes and freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel right I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
(Both) I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you know you know you
Cause all I know is we said hello And your eyes look like coming home All I know is a simple name, everything has changed All I know is you held the door You'll be mine and I'll be yours All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
(Ed Sheeran) And all my walls stood tall painted blue But I'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies the beautiful kind Making up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel right
(Both) I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you know you know you
Cause all I know is we said hello And your eyes look like coming home All I know is a simple name, everything has changed All I know is you held the door You'll be mine and I'll be yours All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
Come back and tell me why I'm feeling like I've missed you all this time And meet me there tonight And let me know that it's not all in my mind
(Taylor Swift) I just want to know you better know you better know you better now I just want to know you know you know you
(Both) Cause all I know is we said hello And your eyes look like coming home All I know is a simple name, everything has changed All I know is you held the door You'll be mine and I'll be yours All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
(Taylor Swift with Ed in background) All I know is we said hello So dust off your highest hopes All I know is pouring rain And everything has changed All I know is a newfound grace All my days, I'll know your face
(Both) All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
You and Me
by LifeHouse
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people With nothing to do, nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say Just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people With nothing to do, nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
Something about you now I can't quite figure out Everything she does is beautiful Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people With nothing to do, nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people With nothing to do and nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive
Hellooooo it's a Saturday morning and it's a miracle I woke up at 8.15am without the alarm clock on or anything. MIRACLEEEEEE haha
Even though I only slept at like 1am...oh gosh I feel brilliant.
Yesterday was quality. Okay let's start with Thursday night. I decided to take a nap till 8pm before waking up to do work or maybe even go down and jog, but my nap extended till 5am the next morning BRILLIANT SHIT HAHA. I even thought it was Saturday when my dad came in to wake me up cos obviously I didn't set my mandatory 4 alarms. I had to skip breakfast packing my bag and getting ready urghhh but at least with 9 hours of sleep I felt energized haha
School went normal and during break Dawn karate chopped her glasses into pieces. We were talking - she was doing all sorts of gestures and movements while she yakked and I was innocently drinking my HL milk listening when her hand came down and landed on her own glasses - she says it's my fault :/ So Dawn went around blind the whole day but actually she just slept during classes so it didn't matter.
After school Tif Dawn Val and I stayed in one of the classrooms to study. I was studying econs but I ended up napping for 20 min - not very productive. Around 5pm Dawn and I went to Parkway to the optician's to check her glasses (it became worse cos it was squashed in her bag) and grab some stuff at Starbucks.
Have I ever told you Dawn eats cheesecake in the most gorgeous way ever?
Haha so we talked and took pictures like shameless creatures:
Afterwards Dawn went back to the optician's to check something out while I had to head back to Choa Chu Kang to meet Mr Wong (the band instructor I respect the mosttt) and other old bandmates.
So we had Ajisen's and talked about old band memories like ghost stories, funny accidents etc etc. It felt great to see everyone again. Well i'll be seeing most of them again after Promos when I go back to BPMB to help with the SYF preps (which i'll have to train my rusty marching skills for). Willie my ex partner in crime and i were giving Wenyi the new drum major all sorts of bullshit ideas for camp haha. I think when Willie and I were majors we didn't get to do all the fun stuff with the band so we were forcing it on the poor girl.
We left Lot 1 pretty late like at 10.30 ish. Weijun my 'son' and I decided to walk all the way to Yew Tee (about 5km) while having some 'mother-son' quality time haha. In the past when I was still in band we'd go back together since he lives near me, and talk about all our problems. My son has grown a lot ^^ Now he's gonna sit for the N levels but he's always been the top scorer in his cohort so I think he'll do well. Just that i'm worried about the anger management issues he told me about, like getting into fights even though he's trying his best to walk away when he's angry. I'm sure he'll get over the phase:)
Yep so he walked a further distance to my house cos he said it was dangerous LIKE HELLO I'M A YEAR OLDER AND IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVEN'T WALKED HOME MYSELF but I appreciate his "filial' intentions haha. He's like the one and only 'son' I have...who actually wishes me happy mother's day :/
So this morning I got up and when I saw 8.14am on my phone I felt accomplished... haha.i awoke earlier than everyone else in the family :D so I got up and hung the clothes out (i'd make a good housewife but nah dun wanna) then decided to pop downstairs for a jog. (I ACTUALLY MANAGED TO MOVE MY FAT ASS DOWN HELLYEAH) I left a note on my door and went two rounds around the neighbourhood before walking at the canal to do some warm down stretches. The place looks lovely in the morning :')
Mom was leaving for her part time work when I came home and apparently she didn't know I was out cos she didn't see the note :/ Skippy was near the couch so I decided to take a nice photo of him (the dog kept licking me irritating)
Speaking about notes, on Thursday Dawn and I had this crazy post-it note moment: I was writing stuff and sticking it on her hahahaha. It ended with more A15 peeps coming in to take zipais (a thing we love to do).
It says : "GIMME YOUR LOVE" , "LOVE ME!" and "ADOPT ME!" on Dawn's back and she just walked around in school with them on her back hahaha. Gen and Christy look adorbs ^^
The following pics are full of spastic pictures so be warned:
Tif, yours truly, Nicole and Dawn :))
Actually we look like idiots here but A15 girls are pretty okay (shameless me i'm like at the bottom hahs). haha it's not just me who says so, we have a reputation of having lotsa lovely girls . Just that we love looking spastic and bitchy in all our photos :P
These days feel so happy and it matters, cos I don't want to live a sad life.
If you're wondering why I like posting pictures every post, it's cos I feel relieved from a bit of tension looking at them. It's such a waste we can see the beautiful things of this world, but we can't capture them as they look in our minds permanently all the time, isn't it. :(
The world is a beautiful and splendid place, better still if there weren't any unnecessary violence *sigh*
Today was crazy I had lessons straight with only and hour and a half's break till 6pm. Not much you say but it's ALOT MORE than usual :/
I had a stupid migraine after the GP essay test so i spent half of my hour's break resting my head on the table. Alicia and Gracia freaked out when they saw me in the toilet after I washed my face. I must have looked terrible cos they were fussing over me (heartwarming ^^) but it got better afterwards. Just that it's irritating having to go through the usual migraine thing - everything gets alarmingly bright and defined and all the sounds around me get amplified - i was telling dawn it's as if I had dolby surround in my system for a moment. But i'm going for my annual checkup during Sept hols so I can tell my doc that. Actually nothing helps, even with check ups and medicine my migraine won't disappear so ill have to live with it. GOTTA SURVIVEE
I've been feeling rather lost these days too. Things I thought would go well didn't happen at all and i'm left with all these false anticipation. I got my hopes too high and crashed heavier, and it's my fault for not trying harder. But i'm so dilemma-ed into whether I should be brave and just...just look and smile.And all my fear caused me to avert my gaze and act stoic.A fault and weakness of mine.And with this I have another fault - I give up altogether.Rather than deal with the pain of worrying about a choice, I fare better at regretting and blaming myself for being chicken. It's a give and take - i can pull off a strong front in all situations but situations so sensitive to the heart. I've taken a step forward with hopes of an end but now I've just turned and fled. So weak. But on the bright side all wounds heal with time, and all I have is a few months before I won't be seeing the one who makes me so confused and troubled everyday.
Dawn and I've been talking a lot about things like our romances in future. Dawn adamantly says she wants to take some celibacy or what - basically she doesn't want to give herself up to any guy - and I have absolutely no idea what to say to that. I believe in Que Sera Sera - whatever will be, will be. We don't know what will happen in the future, so I just want to be content at present. Dawn's been worrying about how she's never had a guy go after her before and keeps asking me stuff like "am I not attractive enough?" and all. She's been losing weight a lot these days and it's not that she isn't attractive, but I tell her the impression she gives to guys is that she is not your typical girl - she sometimes intimidates guys haha. The girl says she wants to feel wanted at least once. I don't blame her cos we all want to feel wanted.
One day we will get what we dream of, but we might not get them in the way we expected.
I love this place But it's haunted without you My tired heart Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less than We wanted, we wanted Our hearts sing 'cause We do not know, we do not know
To light the night, to help us grow To help us grow It is not said, I always know
You can catch me Don't you run, don't you run If you live another day In this happy little house The fire's here to stay
To light the night, to help us grow To help us grow It is not said, I always know
Please don't make a fuss, it won't go away The wonder of it all The wonder that I made
I am here to stay
I am here to stay
Stay
Isn't this song so beautiful :') Hahaha plus Amanda Seyfried's awesome I love her in Mamma Mia and Les Mis...
I also wanna stay in a little house with people I love (yet actually I like the thought of living alone too hehs) I imagine the things i'd do with the man of my life haha - go grocery shopping, cook together, paint the house, play PS3 together... that'd be so peaceful :)
But for now that future is so far away cos now we have to study study study.
I try to keep myself content as much as possible when i'm alone. Everyone has their own way of coping - Dawn calls me up to talk about anything and everything because connecting is what she likes. Mom plays Candy Crush and all sorts of games on her Acer tablet and watches her Taiwanese dramas because these visual stuff brings her entertainment. Dad listens to music and looks at watches because he's fascinated by them. Skippy wrestles with his toys and blankie cos there's no other choice.
I like to sleep. zzzzzzz haha. I could just lie in bed all day and stare at the ceiling and think about all sorts of crap, daydream about how I would survive in an apocalypse, how cool it'd be if I had some sort of super power, how i'd spend a million bucks and all sorts of bull.
My imaginations dreams and nightmares bring much more excitement and entertainment than my very own mundane life - it's what keeps me alive.
A dead girl can't daydream.
And one day when I die I hope I live in a little house with all my imaginations, dreams and nightmares crystallised and real, living in my own mind where the excitement never ends.
Yesterday was the last event of the 2012/2013 VJGE batch - Senior Farewell...sheesh i'm so gonna miss them seniors.
I mean I don't know them on a personal level but their very presence is so comforting so ):
I was so nervous during preps that I couldn't eat a proper meal - I had fruit punch, a nugget and a bite of cookie after Vernice threatened to get angry at me. But I was so nervy I just couldn't sit down properly so I was moving around like some lost kid ._. plus the stupid masking tape kept disappearing and reappearing at different places I was so close to flinging it out (and making it disappear again)
And I felt bad for yesterday too cos I was in charge for games and honestly I think I was a horrible game master - aside from the sadistic games of course I meant for the sadistic games to happen! But the games were laggy, especially the second one and it was awfully messy. The third game wasn't good too (though it was really funny to watch them all squeeze in front of the camera for the camera game) cos the pictures taken were all blurry. If I knew the cameras we have were like that I would have brought my own :/ but oh wells.
And during the Goats performance I think I sang like shit. It was okay during rehearsals but during the actual performance I couldn't hear myself and I might have hit a wrong key omg (freaks out)
Sushi and I wanted to perform The Only Exception by Paramore during open mic with me on the guitar and her on vocals but we were all short on time - I attribute the lack of time to my terrible games planning ><
Then Vernice left earlier around 9 plus but i didn't wanna leave yet so i stayed. In the end I left earlier than the rest with Sushi (i was damn sad I wanted to be there till the end) and hitched a ride to Tampines MRT station.
Apparently Sushi's dad had been waiting for an hour plus and couldn't get through to Sushi because there was no reception in the room (like seriously wth man imagine ppl running out to the koi pond and lifting their phones in the air like this:
My parents were really nice to wait for me at Bukit Gombak station to pick me up at 11.50 pm :) but omg I really hope next year's party would not be at Pasir Ris.
Then before and during the party the girls kept bugging me about that eyecandy senior which was really funny and annoying at the same time (Sarah proposed Mission Phototaking 2 from the failed mission during the concert, and Lishan almost ran to ask him but I managed to catch her before she did so which was SCARY)
Well sad to say I STILL didn't get a pic with him, but I did talk to him a little, which is LEVEL UP haha. But now there won't be anymore chances and there are greater things to worry about other than looking at eyecandies:(
Next year's farewell party had better be somewhere closer ><
Farewell and fare well, seniors - you guys are awesome as hell and yall HAVE TO VISIT US I DON'T CARE YOU BETTER NOT FORGET US.EVER.
