Basically how it went was that for Fridays - Sundays (except today) my day would be spent at Cacio e Pepe working in the kitchen. Then for the rest of the days it would be doing household chores in the morning and studying either at the library or Limbang Macs for the whole afternoon till evening. There was one day when i studied at Macs at night cos i decided to sleep in for the afternoon hehs.
Of course i'm not the perfect mugger so i relax by watching gameplay walkthroughs, music videos...and stalking people. ok i've said it. i DO stalk people. esp people that interest me haha. but you can't really blame me cos whatever's on the Internet is for people to see isn't it. In my personal diary which i write in i did pen down a thought that went "...i'm so good at this that i think i can make a good private investigator or something..." positive thinking,positive thinking...
So far i've finished Resident Evil Revelations and Remember Me (Boston was watching the latter so i decided to give it a shot).
When i watch gameplays i feel a kind of satisfaction, as if i am in another world. It feels like watching a really exciting movie with the best effects - more blood, more gore, more action, better graphics, lovely character designs, superb background setting stage designs - you name it. There's a sought of sadness too, firstly cos you're just a spectator, not a player, and secondly cos it all ends when the game's finished.
But i feel like i get judged watching gameplays cos i'm a girl and the world is sceptical about girl gamers. They think it's a ruse to get attention and favour from guys. Yes there are girls like that out there, but not all are like that, okay?
If you know me well, i'm NOT one of the many girls who have frequent girl outings and shopping sprees (i feel awkward stepping into a boutique alone even when i'm dressed in outside clothes so i mostly shop with my sister and my mom...i get to buy on their credit too!:D)
It's not like i don't want to. I envy those girls (bitches they become when i'm jealous but they're really not) who post their lovely filtered camwhoring pics or selfies or selcas as they like to call them on fb and twitter (thank heavens i do not have an instagram account) But then again i want to be doing something i'm comfortable with, and dressing up pretty and fashionable and going out for lovely lunches and shopping trips is not exactly what i enjoy. Being caught up with how i look and dress is fucking tiring.Besides i already do not have a flattering figure or appearance, so any amount of prettying is kind of useless - not like i have anyone to show to and not like anyone gives a damn.
I want to escape this superficial helpless reality. And dreams start to reduce in numbers with age.
Turning to gameplays is like playing a dream created by the geniuses' dreams and imaginations put on the drawing board in the gaming companies' creative studios. Ideally i want to live in the place they create - walking on the streets of Neo-Paris in Remember Me, splashing paint on blank canvases in The Unfinished Swan...even running away from zombies in the Resident Evil series or the darkness in Silent Hill...
At least in those worlds the characters have a purpose...
In the games if i were a character...any character, i don't even mind being the antagonist (actually i take satisfaction in playing the bad guy roles...people are not evil and bad for no reason even though most of the time their catchphrase is "I WANNA RULE AND CONTROL THE WORLD THEREFORE I AM CAUSING DESTRUCTION")...if i were a character i would have some sort of ability be it controlling memories (Remember Me) or even using a badass rifle or shotgun.(OR A BAZOOKA that's always the finishing weapon in most of the RE games), i would have a purpose be it save the world or ruin the world...and i would look cool cos of the amazing character designs:
haha i knew you'd be thinking "this girl's biased she's only referring to the main characters that would of course look good" so i put up the Leapers ( memory addicted humans who have degraded Sensens and mutate to sub-human forms) AND THEY LOOK COOL TOO OKAY.
In Remember Me my fav character's Bad Request (on the left with cornrows), a wannabe Memory Hunter and Nilin's biggest fan. He reminds me of Darren my AGL cos he sounds like him and kinda acts like him which is quite interesting and amusing. But i like Bad Request cos he's really great and in the end died saving Nilin (on the right).
Right now i'm also working on a lil fan fiction on Remember Me characters in my Notes app on my phone cos i'm so inspired by the whole game idea (i don't know why reviews are so mixed about it it's a fucking awesome game damn you reviewers) and of course i'm gonna somehow get Bad Request back into the picture even though he's dead.
And i end off with Remember Me's brilliant soundtracks:
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