Memory and the Point of No Return

IT'S BEEN A WHILEEEEEE

I'm so terribly sorry bloggiee I haven't been writing in my own diary too actually. I'm either too tired, too uninspired or just too stoned.

A lot has happened all this time I was inactive on my blog, but I won't bore you or myself out by recounting EVERYYTHINGGGGG that happened because my life is just so ordinary and uninteresting. To sum up, I feel like my life is in a whirl at the moment, like I'm on a slow carousel ride feeling all nauseous and blinded by lights everywhere. I can't wait to leap off this ride, take a break and try some other ride of life.

When I think of my life now, the first thing that pops in my head is

SCHOOL.

 

 

Which is so so so so so sad. Not family, or religion, or even mushy romance but

 

 

SCHOOL.

 

I must be pretty screwed up now don't you think. Sure, I love school for my friends and all but then again I confess I always badly want to get away and be alone by myself somewhere else. I believe some distance is necessary.

 

Right now all I want to do is to eat a whole tub of ice cream by myself, watch some movies and just not care about anything else. I want to live the pig life (even though Dawn is trying to get me to slim down for Prom this year. I told her i can turn up in a pig costume or spacesuit if I'm too fat to look good in dresses and she was like NO WE'VE GOTTA LOOK FAB FOR PROM)

 

Music and sleep has been my escape so far. Lately I've been addicted to Memory from the musical Cats.

 

 

Memory,
turn your face to the moonlight

Letyour memory lead you

Open up enter in

If you find there the meaning of what happiness is

Then a new life will begin

 

Memory,

all alone in the moonlight

I can smile at the old days

I was beautiful then

I remember the time I knew what happiness was

Let the memory live again

 

Burnt out ends of smokey days

The stale cold smell of morning

The streetlamp dies, another night is over

Anotherday is dawning

 

Daylight

I must wait for the sunrise

I must think of a new life

And I mustn't give in

When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too

And a new day will begin

 

Sunlight
through the trees in the summer

Endless masquerading

Like a flower as the dawn is breaking

The memory is fading

 

Touch me, it's so easy to leave me

All alone with the memory

Of my days in the sun

If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is

Look, a new day has begun

 

I want to watch Cats the Musical someday :)) I love musicals, and I love theatre so so so so much. Just sitting in a theatre alone is enough to keep me happy at the suspense. Another musical song stuck in my head is Point of No Return from Phantom of the Opera.

 

 

I have Sir Andrew Lloyd Webber to sincerely thank for his amazing compositions for Cats and POTO, and esp POTO because every musical number in it is just flawless and epic!