Actually Lovin' This Haze

HEEEELLLLLOOOOO ONE AND ALL

It's going to be the start of the last week of June hols and YES i am freaking out like a little shit cos of MYEs.

I'm crossing my fingers really really hard that some miracle of some sort will happen - the haze will be so terrible it shoots to the "it-will-seriously-kill-you-like-a-zombie-virus-thing" range and SCHOOL WILL BE CLOSED FUCKYEAHH NO MORE MYEs!

or even something like getting struck by lightning and suddenly gaining powers like an IQ of 1 million or super good memory to help ace my exams.

Hah. what am i thinking. But i somewhat like this haze (hey thanks Indonesia) cos when i wake up in the morning and look out of the window i like to imagine we're in apocalyptic times *cue dramatic music* and mankind is fighting for survival or some shit. And then i don a mask to protect me from the poisonous fumes that will kill me if i inhale too much and step out of the shelter of my home into the dangerous world where i will scavenge for supplies to aid me through the tough times.

okay yes enough samantha you lil brat. stop cursing the world for goodness' sake.

 

So besides studying at Limbang Macs and working i've been Youtubing and listening to music to chill off. Have you heard of PEWDIEPIE ?! HAHA he's amazing he's so funny this is the first video of his i saw and after that i went to watch his montages and gameplays (so far i've watched Misao, Mad Father, Gretel and Hansel, Pizza 1 & 2 and some episodes of Happy Wheels)

He does mostly action and horror genre games (i likey) plus his commentaries are hilarious.

 



 

Then while studying i've been listening to music in my IPhone and there's this song i've listened to for trillions of times yet i never get sick of it (You know there're songs you listen to alot at first but after a while you just skip it when it comes on cos you're SICK of it) but not this. It's Young Folks by Peter John and Bjorn. Okay the music video is kinda boring but i love the music. I never ever get sick of it!And it holds not much of a meaning too.

 



 

Anws my birthday's coming soon and mom keeps asking if i want to have friends over for a celebration but i was like no, cos my friends all live in the east area except Dawn and my birthday's in a busy and critical time (during MYEs dammit).17 huh...i'm finally going to be 17. With every passing year i find birthdays less and less significant and all i just want is a simple meal and cake. (STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE PUHLEASSSEEE)

 

Gosh i feel old.

To Remember Me

The first week of June hols is over...and i feel so unaccomplished.
Basically how it went was that for Fridays - Sundays (except today) my day would be spent at Cacio e Pepe working in the kitchen. Then for the rest of the days it would be doing household chores in the morning and studying either at the library or Limbang Macs for the whole afternoon till evening. There was one day when i studied at Macs at night cos i decided to sleep in for the afternoon hehs.

Of course i'm not the perfect mugger so i relax by watching gameplay walkthroughs, music videos...and stalking people. ok i've said it. i DO stalk people. esp people that interest me haha. but you can't really blame me cos whatever's on the Internet is for people to see isn't it. In my personal diary which i write in i did pen down a thought that went "...i'm so good at this that i think i can make a good private investigator or something..." positive thinking,positive thinking...

So far i've finished Resident Evil Revelations and Remember Me (Boston was watching the latter so i decided to give it a shot).

When i watch gameplays i feel a kind of satisfaction, as if i am in another world. It feels like watching a really exciting movie with the best effects - more blood, more gore, more action, better graphics, lovely character designs, superb background setting stage designs - you name it. There's a sought of sadness too, firstly cos you're just a spectator, not a player, and secondly cos it all ends when the game's finished.

But i feel like i get judged watching gameplays cos i'm a girl and the world is sceptical about girl gamers. They think it's a ruse to get attention and favour from guys. Yes there are girls like that out there, but not all are like that, okay?
If you know me well, i'm NOT one of the many girls who have frequent girl outings and shopping sprees (i feel awkward stepping into a boutique alone even when i'm dressed in outside clothes so i mostly shop with my sister and my mom...i get to buy on their credit too!:D)



It's not like i don't want to. I envy those girls (bitches they become when i'm jealous but they're really not) who post their lovely filtered camwhoring pics or selfies or selcas as they like to call them on fb and twitter (thank heavens i do not have an instagram account) But then again i want to be doing something i'm comfortable with, and dressing up pretty and fashionable and going out for lovely lunches and shopping trips is not exactly what i enjoy. Being caught up with how i look and dress is fucking tiring.Besides i already do not have a flattering figure or appearance, so any amount of prettying is kind of useless - not like i have anyone to show to and not like anyone gives a damn.

I want to escape this superficial helpless reality. And dreams start to reduce in numbers with age.

Turning to gameplays is like playing a dream created by the geniuses' dreams and imaginations put on the drawing board in the gaming companies' creative studios. Ideally i want to live in the place they create - walking on the streets of Neo-Paris in Remember Me, splashing paint on blank canvases in The Unfinished Swan...even running away from zombies in the Resident Evil series or the darkness in Silent Hill...

At least in those worlds the characters have a purpose...

In the games if i were a character...any character, i don't even mind being the antagonist (actually i take satisfaction in playing the bad guy roles...people are not evil and bad for no reason even though most of the time their catchphrase is "I WANNA RULE AND CONTROL THE WORLD THEREFORE I AM CAUSING DESTRUCTION")...if i were a character i would have some sort of ability be it controlling memories (Remember Me) or even using a badass rifle or shotgun.(OR A BAZOOKA that's always the finishing weapon in most of the RE games), i would have a purpose be it save the world or ruin the world...and i would look cool cos of the amazing character designs:

 

haha i knew you'd be thinking "this girl's biased she's only referring to the main characters that would of course look good" so i put up the Leapers ( memory addicted humans who have degraded Sensens and mutate to sub-human forms) AND THEY LOOK COOL TOO OKAY.

 



In Remember Me my fav character's Bad Request (on the left with cornrows), a wannabe Memory Hunter and Nilin's biggest fan. He reminds me of Darren my AGL cos he sounds like him and kinda acts like him which is quite interesting and amusing. But i like Bad Request cos he's really great and in the end died saving Nilin (on the right).

Right now i'm also working on a lil fan fiction on Remember Me characters in my Notes app on my phone cos i'm so inspired by the whole game idea (i don't know why reviews are so mixed about it it's a fucking awesome game damn you reviewers) and of course i'm gonna somehow get Bad Request back into the picture even though he's dead.

And i end off with Remember Me's brilliant soundtracks:

Work and Service

Nice picture eh? I went to google image 'Italy' and this lovely picture came up! I WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY :<

Haha okay forgive my randomness. Yeap so i started work again at Cacio e Pepe on Saturday in the kitchen. My skills were still a lil rusty but i think i did okay (as you can see i'm writing this post without being cooked or anything) I cut my pinky though, while slicing the tomatoes for Caprese (don't worry there wasn't blood shed on the food IT'S CLEAN)...now i can't practise properly on the guitar :S i'm gonna die once practice resumes.

Yay so yesterday i learnt to make 2 desserts from scratch! Ben the other part timer was teaching me as i jotted down notes on the lovely vintage looking notebook Chenxin gave me last time. During break (3 - 5.30pm) everyone else were either reading or sleeping (actually they all started out reading but plonked haha) and i was there studying COS THERE'S NOT ENOUGH TIME DAMMIT nahhh i just decided to study. But i was soooo tired urgh. Plus Sundays are our major clean up days so i was exhausted like hell.

Then i found out my bosses were expecting me to work for the whole of June including weekdays.I mean, i definitely can't!i have MYE to study for - even right now i have insufficient time. i only have 16 days to study minusing my work days. and i didn't work cos i needed cash or something but cos i know my bosses are facing a tough time looking for part timers (the prev one was lousy and just resigned, and Ben can't work for the whole of June) so i decided to help out since i felt bad for rejected Bee's request to work a few times alr. Of course, the pay is an incentive haha.

SLV
Then this morning i woke up early like 7.15am cos today's SLV day! (Service Learning Volunteering i think i'm not sure what it actually stands for) but i had to go to VJC first to submit my mt essay.And now i'm gonna rant about the MRT system:

SERIOUSLY JUST DO SOMETHING PLEASE. actually wasn't it all fine before even without the Circle Line? THE GOVT SHOULD STOP INTRODUCING MORE PEOPLE INTO SINGAPORE.
It is terrible - how would you like being packed like freaking sardines even after missing the first train (can't squeeze in anymore people). I alighted at Buona Vista because i thought changing to the Circle Line would save me from the excess skinship BUT NUUUU apparently alot of people use the Circle Line too. i decided to just tap out and hail a taxi. (no i'm not a rich kid who can just hail a taxi on a whim - i happened to have higher purchasing power cos yesterday was payday!)

And just my luck i got the white taxi the EXPENSIVE ONE. but i felt it was worth paying cos it was a comfortable ride (i hate taking taxis sometimes cos of that heavy pandan smell and the bumpy ride that gives headaches) and the driver was polite...and pretty cute HAHA ok that was unnecessary.and since he took the AYE we drove on one of the roads i love driving on the most ever since i was a little kid peering out through the windows of my dad's car.it's like a highway and you'll see giant billboards advertisements and the shipyard with lots of containers on one side and work officers and buildings on the other (and the old train station).

After vj i took the bus to Mountbatten to meet the core SLV team (Dawn Tif Eric Ida and myself) to prepare the programmes for the elderly and TungLing Eldercare. We went to Old Airport Food centre to order the tau huay for the elderly and haul them back to the centre. When the rest of A15 arrived later they were pretty nervous cos they didn't know how to communicate with the elderly.

Personally i prefer working with elderly to working with kids contrary to what alot of people think. It's not that i dislike kids or whatever but i happen to click better with the elderly, and kids require lots of energy to handle (urghh). And on my mom's side of the family all my cousins (esp the female cousins) flock to the babies (either the nieces/nephews or cousins) and start fussing over them and -spoiling- them. I don't really like the idea of giving the babies loads of attention and goodies (most likely they'll end up spoiled but not always) and so i always avoid joining the crowd of female cousins showering their affection for the babies.

I was the emcee for the programme so i had to be patronising - and i exhausted my whole range of limited vocab (i'm all ready for oral now haha) and tried to connect with the elder folks. apparently everyone was surprised with my emceeing ability cos usually in class i'm not outstandingly social (my class has ALOT of interesting outstanding people) and well yup i'm  pretty pleased with myself haha. I had to act out that emceeing role cos obviously that wasn't in my personality and Dawn was saying "if you used that emceeing personality with me i would've punched you cos i know that's not you" which is true. Dawn knows me really well haha.

I felt it was a good SLV though i thought we could have done better cos it was quite messy.But today was a great day :)

JUNE HOLS OHYEAHHH

hello Hello HELLO YARHHHHH JUNE HOLS IS HERE *dances a jig*

haha i have absolutely NO IDEA why i'm so happy. Cos i have to study really hard during June for the Mid Years taking place right when school reopens, plus i'll be working as well, and i really really wanna kickstart an exercise regime to lose the flabs.

But first, let me show you a picture of a most wonderful and fine specimen of beauty:

YES IT'S MY BAG FROM TAOBAO.COM!!!(Scroll down a few posts and you'll see Park Shinhye carrying it in "Heartstrings")

 

Tif my lovely classmate said it was delivered yesterday so she brought it over today for me and awwww it's such a beautiful bag <3 My bag cost me $14.40 and somehow it seems more precious than my current (now assuming "previous" status) black and red Zinc bag that cost much more. I have a soft spot and weakness for gorgeous looking bags. Tif also got the same bag so now we have "couple" bag hahahaha okay enough of the spazzing and gushing.

 

So yeah now i have Geog Econs Lit Math GP and CL to worry about. I feel like dying cos i have to write essays non stop so my hand can just wither and rot to death.

 

Then last week Bee smsed asking if i could work in June back in the kitchen cos they are short of people. Honestly i was reluctant cos of the Mid Years prep but i guess i can cope? Besides how can i resist the free dinners of the gorgeous pastas after every night shift :D and i feel bad cos i rejected Bee twice when she asked if i could work on Sat during the school term. So this Sat i'm gonna go back to Cacio e Pepe (climb that irritating hill to the restaurant too) in the morning to familiarise myself with the menu again and prob learn more new foods!

 

And i must really start running - 1)lose the flabs 2)improve on my 2.4km timing. Lately i haven't been dieting cos of all the stress that's making me turn to food, esp chocs since i get high on chocs. So my weight rose again (sobs my successful efforts to lose about 2kg went down to the bloody drain). And i barely passed my 2.4km (actually i'm shamelessly proud that i passed cos i didn't even train for it at all) on the bright side i got silver for NAPFA so NO MORE 3RD PERIOD PE YAY. i have my 5 stations to thank haha.

 

All these plans and commitments making me apprehensive, so i'm comforting myself with the fact that i get to catch up on much needed sleep :)

Actress Wannabe

 

OMG i came across this video my sis Stacey and i did 3 years ago :O haha it was for some competition can't remember what, but WOW haha.

 

I looked so much skinnier last time what happened omg. Prob this video is for me - so ironic.

 

And i have to say - my acting skills are like shit haha. Even Skippy did a better job!

 

 

 



My Time Traveller

I know i still have my Othello and Waterland Lit texts to finish reading - but they are just so mundane and boring! So I just picked up a new book to read - The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger!

 I was cleaning up my messy room on Sunday early morning (12am - 3 am since i slept for the whole of Sat) and unearthed alot of books (plus 10 year old chem notes from her NJC years) that my sister Stella had stowed away in the cupboards before she moved out after her marriage (and i took over her room:D)

And there were loads of comics too. Plus Star Trek books. My sister must've been geeky then haha.But she doesn't look like one. Just for randomness i'm gonna post like a few pics of the Leong sisters to show how we've changed!

See how much all of us have changed:D haha we should take a more recent pic soon cos this last pic was like from CNY 2 years ago, when i had my hair super short.

So i was saying - The Time Traveller's Wife - IT'S SUCH A WONDERFUL BOOK THANK YOU AUDREY NIFFENEGGER :D

 

It's about Henry DeTamble, a guy suffering from Chrono-Impairement causing him to involuntarily travel through time. And the amazing thing is that he first met his wife Clare Abshire when she was 6 and he was 36, marrying when she was 22 and he was 30. Anw here's the 2009 movie trailer to make things easier haha:

 



 

And i really love the story - it makes me think how wonderful it'll be if i could meet a Time Traveller - someone who knows my future and can give me reassurance. But it's really sad cos Henry disappears every now and then leaving Clare lonely sometimes. But i believe since absence makes the heart grow fonder their love must be really deep.

 

It'll be cool if i could time travel as well! It's like having the ability to go back and enjoy the lovely moments of the past - a playback function on our life's record player.

 



 This is my favourite scene of the book where Clare and Henry meet when she is young. It looks like a father-daughter scene, but who would have thought these two are husband and wife!:O

If i could time travel, i believe i would be a happier person unlike Henry. Henry doesn't like his ability because it means he can't always be with Clare, and unlike him, i do not have anything holding me back.

A Rendezvous to Remember

Gahhhh i'm down with a terrible flu...well at least i only got sick after the Rendezvous 2013 concert ytd!

Even though i only played for two songs in the whole of the concert(cos i'm in the junior ensemble) it was still great, nevertheless :) There were loads of mixed emotions - i was excited cos the big day was finally here, but sad because after it ends, the seniors will be gone and all of us will be in the main ensemble ( you know the feeling when you miss being noobies and all?)

So everyone was like going around taking pics and camwhores to mark the last few moments...

 
The Junior Ensemble girls! Girls i really enjoyed the gal moments we had together, gossiping and making each other laugh with funny stuff and all! We're moving on to the main ensemble now, but i hope we continue to stay bonded together :)

Vernice, it's been great going to Guitar together with you! I remember you were still worried about whether you could get into VJDance and what other CCAs you could join if you couldn't while i was telling you i was considering VJGE.I remember when we submitted our applications, went for the auditions, got into VJGE and all the other memories. Let's go all the way in VJGE together!<3

 Me Vernice Sushi and Anisah!!

 VJGE 2013 BATCH! (with Mr Ong and Mr Gaspar) haha this isn't a good shot but Ezra tried his best to take the picture while the rest of us tried to maintain our smiles and poses. Guys, from now on we have to work well together as an ensemble and play ass-kicking music haha!

 The limitations and space constraints of using the front camera haha.

 VJGE Senior Ensemble~taken during your last rehearsal. i will miss all of you and the wonderful music you guys play :'( although i've never actually spoken to some of you guys due to the shortage of bonding time, i really admired all of you and your musicianship esp during the SYF period.

My spoils haha^^ i missed out Belinda's wonderful chocolate and Sarah's adorable note! Thank you to the supporters haha!
My A15 friends who came to watch (Dawn Eric Lynn Danyel Wen Li) thanks for the beautiful two roses (they're in a vase now haha)

Natalie who came all the way to support thanks for the polaroid shot! You had no idea how happy i was when i saw you running over and hugging me haha.

CaiFan my overstudy (ummm it's the opp of understudy right?) thanks for the bag of goodies (which i shall have to save for later when i get better haha) and your guidance all these while in my secretarial work <3

Marianne thanks for your sweet handmade rose! i felt bad that i didn't make anything for y'all ):

Belinda thanks for your wonderful chocs :D although now you're in VJSB you still came to support us! I'll be coming to watch you play at the esplanade for the Limelight band concert!:)

Sarah thanks for your adorable note!!!Project Phototaking didn't work out well yesterday haha. I really appreciated how you encouraged me with your story, but i was still too chicken to take a photo with him! I feel really happy around you as well, and don't fret too much about the teachers alr haha!

And my lovely mom and dad who came to watch even though you two are still recovering from your flu (OKAY YOU PASSED ME YOUR FLU) <3


And so Rendezvous 2013 ended like this yesterday :) Vernice Ryan Anisah and Sarah were bugging me to take a pic with my eyecandy senior but i was just too chicken haha. It's my first concert and his last, so i didn't wanna ruin it with awkwardness! But i did see alot of him around ytd which was good enough for me (haha the purpose of an eyecandy) cos after the concert everyone was running around (UTTER CHAOS) so i put my bag at some safe corner while i ran around. When i came to retrieve my stuff i saw his bag next to mine KYAAAAAA (fangirl cue) Yes, i will miss you too, Mr Eyecandy haha :)

From now onwards things will get busier in VJGE for the rest of us remaining, but we will push on and keep the VJGE spirit going! Speaking of which i'm reminded we will be assigned out sections soon! NOOOOOO haha i opted for Alto and Bass! Not Prime cos my chord transitions are like shit haha.There's the guitaron as well but i didn't opt for that cos there's only 2 guitaron positions (it's like the bass clarinet - a solo instrument that is important in the unimportant way)

Ok i gotta stop cos i'm starting to feel whoozy (Darn this damned flu) byeeeee~